Money is everything

I had an interview yesterday. I am a marketer by passion, I interviewed for a banking position at an Investment bank. Why? I love money more than passion. Instead of pursing a career in something that I "like", I am willing to put up with a bunch of idiots (yes thats what I think of ibankers), work like a dog (100 hrs or more a week) doing something I dont "like" (heck.. I will take the liberty of calling it "hate").

I have always been the type of guy that would not do anything that I didnt believe in. A couple of job rejections later, I have become what I hated. The sad thing is I am not the only one... I can name 20 people off the top of my head that are willing to make due with some crap of a job and embracing misery with open arms all for... the power to own some paper with the intention to buying some more crap with it that they dont need. And I am one of them.

Its not doing something I dont like that I am pissed about... I am pissed at a life that one lives doing something he doesnt like. Parents said go to school... I went to school. Parents said go to college... I went to college. Parents said get a good job... I am trying to get a good job (and the funny part is that eventhough I am trying to resist this imprisonment.. I cant seem to. My body seems to follow the direction set by my parents... while my mind ponders in an F'ed up state all of its own.)

I must leave now so that I can apply to more jobs and sit thru an interview and waste 30 minutes of my life... hoping the interviewer likes me and give him the impression that I give a F**K about his company or the position he is there to offer me.

- Neo

Infatuation at first site possible?

I will talk about a recent experience that I have had that has got me thinking about infatuation, liking someone and even love. I went to a restaurant the other day, the waitress named "M" was by far the most beautiful girl I have seen in person. I, in a moment of weakness for true beauty, tipped the waitress 15 dollars (my total meal only cost 14). I plan to go back and ask the girl out. The issue is that it has been 8 days and I haven't stopped thinking about her. Her smile, personality, eyes, the way she carried her self, everything... I cant stop thinking about. Now I don't think I am in love with her... I hardly know her. I don't think I can say I like her because I must have talked to her for 5 minutes max (not to mention that this also includes her taking my friend's orders and reading the specials). I guess I am infatuated with her, however, I don't think it is case cause I still can't stop thinking about her (and making her the topic of my first post). Plus, for her, I have taken many a jokes and insults from my friends and continue to do so (sounds like a line from a chick flick). This is what I think could be possible explanations for this absurd behavior (BTW.. I have never done/felt this way about anyone).
1) I have conveniently made her into this "perfect" girl that fits my type. Maybe spending more than 5 minutes would show sides of her that I absolutely hate. Does this make her nothing nothing more than a figment of my imagination.
2)I am bored and looking for an embarrassing shotdown (she is atleast 4 years older than me and if she is somehow single, she is way out of my league)
3)I feel the need to bow down to societal and cultural notion of norm (the push my parents/family/friends/strangers/teachers/media all give me to be with "someone" )
4)Infatuation/Love at first site is possible, despite having bashed it and considering all that fall in it.. weak.

- Neo
P.S. This blog won't be some sappy/love crap where I cry about random stuff. This just happens to be something that has been on my mind recently.

First Post

Hey.... my nickname is Neo. Today is my first post. This blog will consist mainly of my opinions about life, religion, god, marriage, love, friendship, politics and many other random things. I would love for people to respond or state their own views for other folks to respond. Hope to hear from you guys soon!

- Neo